Picked up a random poetry book From the crowded shelf. Quick easy hour read: Delight and wonder. Then, Found…
Interrupting Intrinsic Self
External vision…
Lilac frosted tulips,
Meringue shaded dahlias,
Exotic pale pink hydrangeas,
Blossoming each spring
Decorating America’s yards,
Adding pleasure to nature lovers.
Intrinsic thoughts…
Wired with no reason,
Brain with A.D.H.D., or A.D.D.,
My brain… Really?
Moments of isolated brain freeze,
Apprehensive arousal as
Panic sets in.
A sudden breeze whips blonde hair on to my cheek,
Tickling my pale freckled skin,
Interrupting my concentration,
Already at risk for making an exit.
Focus… the subject of today’s children’s moment.
Doggies must learn to focus on their owners,
Instead of the kids or squirrels playing nearby.
Already my mind wanders
As a fruit fly thriving around my fermenting compost.
Where was I?
I switch tabs to change the music:
Kamasi Washington’s jazzy rendition,
“Claire de Lune”, envelopes me with
Hypnotic trumpet and somber drum beats.
I turn on my phone to play Scrabble Go;
Thirty minutes later,
I’ve made many successful word choices
From a limited number of letters.
Smiling as an accomplished beaver
Checking out his indestructible handiwork,
I go back to the computer and see
An unfinished poem, unfinished thoughts,
Lost in the chasm of time.
Intrinisic thoughts sway,
hoAnd send me wandering like the
Dandelion seeds I blew on as a child.
I contemplate the nonlinear path
My thoughts have taken over hours,
Only to come to the conclusion,
No matter my good intentions,
My thoughts are greatly affected
By external and intrinsic forces,
Perhaps more so by intrinsic happenings.
Seek advice from professionals:
- “Label these thoughts as ‘intrusive thoughts.’
- Remind yourself that these thoughts are automatic and not up to you.
- Accept and allow the thoughts into your mind. Do not try to push them away.
- Float, and practice allowing time to pass.
- Remember that less is more. Pause. Give yourself time. There is no urgency.
- Expect the thoughts to come back again,” (Seif & Winston).
Move on to the next moment;
Be grateful for the next moment.
Blessings to you my friends!
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Reference
Seif, M., & WInston, S. (n.d.). “Unwanted Intrusive Thoughts.” Anxiety and Depression Society of America. Retrieved from: https://adaa.org/learn-from-us/from-the-experts/blog-posts/consumer/unwanted-intrusive-thoughts.
I feel like I am hearing some poetry in your writing lately. Beautiful.
Oh thanks! I guess this lovely spring weather makes me poetic!